A Trip to the Stars.
Seeing the Light:
One beautiful evening I went out of my tent and breathed deeply of the clean warm air. The sky was extremely clear. The stars shown bright. It is wonderful to be alive here and now. I laid down on top of a sandbag wall and gazed contentedly at the heaven. Relaxing and swimming in the ecstasy of the moment. I felt a peace that was overwhelming. I was in love with existence. I looked at the stars and wished to be there, wished to travel to those points in the night sky. Deep inside me, I felt a sense of love and union with all that is.
In this moment came a sense of expansion, I was extending myself and my love in all directions at a speed that I can only describe as instantaneous. It was a pouring out of emotion, an explosion of love and oneness. It was a sending or an expansion or a transmission of my being. A breaking free of material bonds. Like an explosion, it passed quickly and then there was a serene quietness. I looked down and saw myself laying there on the sandbags. I felt no affinity to that body although I recognized it. I turned to the stars and again wished to be among them. I focused on one star.
Suddenly the world went dark and I felt a surge forward. At that time, I had no knowledge of the various researches into "Life after Death" experiences. But I have to say that I can equate this feeling of going dark and surging forward to traveling in a tunnel at night as some people have reported. My perception was more that there was a sudden removal of all physical matter and physical laws starting at a central point in the frame of my view. This event lasted very shortly; I would say it was over immediately. Then I had the feeling that I was on the other side, beyond the boundary. It was an exhilarating experience. I felt free, and I mean free like it can never exist here on earth.
The mere act of breathing is a chain in the prison compared to the pure freedom I felt. There were no restrictions, no laws of physics or simply no laws, for laws are restrictions. I was not restricted to the normal senses, so to describe something with words like hearing, feeling, seeing etc are in themselves restrictive and unable to transmit or communicate the experience. I am sorry to say that I have only this means to communicate to you what I experienced. Words are totally unsuited, but my only means. The words "I heard music", as an example is a very inadequate phrase to describe the sensation of swimming in pure Love. The "air" was exactly that "pure Love".
One did not breathe it in, it simply was the essence in which all existed. To my right was a Being. I will say He. He spoke not. He simply was. He was simply with me. He watched me and watched over me. He sent out rays or beams that I can describe as happiness or laughing. I saw that he was an irregular ball of light, but not a cold light that can be measured as in our world. His was a light that lived and pulsed with energy.
At this point, I turned my hands palm up and looked into them as I had done when I was still a child. Shock! I had no hands. Also I noticed that there was no down and no up, direction was a restriction that did not exist here. I was also an irregular ball of living, pulsing light. Then He "looked up" and my vision followed His. I saw the stars. But they were changed. They were also living, pulsing beings. As one sends a hunting falcon out, I felt as if I was thrown free. I flew towards one of the lights. I wanted to be with it, to be one with it. Distance, time and speed were irrelevant. I had the impression that the distance was immense, but the mental thought of being there with that other light made it simply happen.
I bridged eons in a blinking of the eye. As I wanted to make contact I felt a spreading out, a reaching out to caress that light. Suddenly another Light came upon us and, as if a man comes from the left and stretches his hand out to hinder the closing of the caress, He came between us and turned me gently aside. He was not the one that had accompanied me in the beginning. He was somehow more powerful. He greeted me with the love of a father or a brother. A greeting of acquaintances long separated and just reunited. He knew me so very well. I didn’t recognize Him. The greeting was more than words can describe it was a communication of love, of being, of all that is, of pure truth.
Then He asked "Are you ready?" Puzzled, I could only respond with "Huh!?" Which I now realize answered His question in the negative. For then he said "Go back or your body will die!" I then felt again that "going dark and surging forward" feeling again. I saw the night sky around me; saw my body laying there on the sandbags. I felt a clear sense of falling directly toward my body. But before I could react, let alone scream out, I was in my body again. I felt my body, I felt as if someone hit me in the chest with a baseball bat. Then it was over. Only the feeling of euphoria at having felt "pure Love" and having touched the Truth were still there with me.
A Trip to the Stars
The book tells my story.